Home Is What I Need In You...

I Caught Fire

2008-05-24T10:00:12Z

In reference to my previous post, everything is fine with everyone now. Had a good night out with them on Wednesday for a friend's birthday! Welsh Club (Clwb Ifor Bach) was amazing. Got too drunk as always, but apparently (according to Dan) I wasn't too bad this time, as I didn't send him funny texts that don't make sense :P. I guess that's a good thing! Too many photos were taken, which reminds me that I need to put mine up on facebook. Won't be going out until the end of exams now. Which I am not that disappointed about, but I'm a bit gutted that I won't be going out with everyone the last week of term because everyone is buggering off to Beach Break Live in Polzeath, Cornwall. Oh well shapeonthesails, is going to be here in Cardiff June 10th - 12th for LOSTPROPHETS TIMES (!!!!) so that will definitely more than make up for it!! Looking forward to meeting you missy!!

I have my last two written exams next week...so excited!! Means then I only have my three last exams to do, which are a listening exam, keyboard skills test and my 15 minute recital. Then I will have finished my first year of university, which in my opinion is totally crazy that it's gone so fast. I am really looking forward to second year though...living in a house and doing really interesting modules.

I need to go ring about a job (Yes, finally doing something about getting out of my current one!!) so hope you are all well!

x x x

Well...

2006-12-03T21:00:53Z

I guess I shall speak to you all when I get back from Oxford. Am there from tomorrow until Wednesday (possibly even Thursday). Got interviews. I am quite nervous but well...I can only do my best.

Everyone look after yourselves!

<333

helen xxx

a meme...

2006-08-27T17:02:19Z

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
× I wear glasses or contact lenses.	× I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	× I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now.
× I love sushi.	✓ I talk really, really fast.	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
✓ I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	× I have at least one sibling.
✓ I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look.	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	✓ I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
✓ I have a hidden talent.	✓ I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	✓ I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex.	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	✓ I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	✓ I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone.	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future.
× I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	✓ I am shy around the opposite sex.	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	× I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends.	✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
× I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
× I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
✓ I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
✓ I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
✓ I fall for the worst people. (well sometimes...daniel is the right person for me.)	✓ I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	× I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	× I talk in my sleep.
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	× I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	✓ I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	✓ I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	× I'm an artist.	✓ I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	× I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	× I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
✓ I can't stand being alone.	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	✓ I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
✓ I have travelled on more than one continent.	✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.	✓ I like reading fact more than fiction.	× I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
✓ I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	✓ The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	× I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
✓ I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	✓ I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	✓ I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	✓ Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
× I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
✓ I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	✓ I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	× I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

well i'm...

2005-08-15T20:34:55Z

single again people. me and dave split up :( i'm a bit upset but i'm not too bad surprisingly.

we split up because he just can't physically cope with going out in the evenings with me and then having to be in work at 6am the next day. it's understandable. i just wish that it didn't have to come to this. i really loved that guy more than some people can imagine. but it's over and there is nothing that i can do about it. maybe it is for the best.

i've not cried as much as i thought i would. weird, huh?

he has said that we should never say never. he's hoping that maybe in a few months things will change and circumstances will be different. i just hope he isn't expecting for me to wait around. of course i'm not looking for anyone right now...i need time to heal. a long time at that probs. so i will probs be around in a few months but it won't be deliberate if you get what i mean?! my mam is all worried about me cause i'm being quite calm about it. i have had a little cry but i don't like crying in front of people. i get kinda embarrassed. ok i cried in front of dave yesterday but that was understandable considering he was crying too.

at least we're still gonna be friends and still gonna go to gigs together. cause my main gigging partner is going off to university in camarthen this year :(

<3333333

helen xxx

PS: To all those who are in relationships: treasure what you've got...you don't know how long you could have it for.

oh how...

2005-08-13T11:29:00Z

confusing!! guys should come with a manual I SWEAR!!! he was all happy normal with me last night. oh well...musn't complain!

my brand new mobile phone is THE SEX! it's all pretty and dark grey/black. it's a samsung e720.

i'm all happy so far today :D

<333333

helen xxx

ARGH!!!

2005-05-28T12:10:31Z

I AM SO FECKING BORED!!!!!!!!!!!

laters
helen xxx

thanx...

2005-02-12T14:17:23Z

thanx to _basket_case for the fantastic lj icons :)

helen xxx

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2004-12-17T15:04:52Z

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rar!

2004-10-15T15:46:50Z

my doggy is still alive! YAY!

i just thought i'd come say something before i go get ready for orchestra.

had the most boring tutor period EVER today! it was all on coursework, time management and revision etc...

but seriously...how thick do they think we are as students at that school?!

i'll write about it later maybe...

gotta go.....

laters
helen xxx

Friends Only

2004-05-16T17:58:56Z

Well! I've decided to make this Journal FRIEND'S ONLY!

If your not already a friend and would like to become a friend then just leave a comment and I will get back to you!

safe xXx